2011 June 17

1 : We tripped to Waterloo city. It was great.

2: Ian's poo had a bit blood this evening.

3: Ian weights 7 Kg today.

3m2w-4w

June-9-2011

Participated in a study about how mom processes information influences how baby processes information. Got $20 (first money ian got for us?! except those kind red envelops from families). Even though ian wasn't as active and as happy as usually (due to the fact that he was just awake and waken by us for the study), I was still glad that I participated in the study. Most of the time, I did surveys. Those questions made me think as a new mom, (as as a new comer to Hamilton) how my life has changed (in a negative way except that we now are having a new life joining in our family). And how I just felt sad and perhaps depressed sometimes without thinking how to overcome it as who I was in the past. Not sure if it's the hormones again.

After the study, we decided to spend the $20 (and more) on shopping at T&T perhaps because we were just too bored to think of something else. It wasn't a great trip as imagined. Traffic jam on our way home. made ian and I slept. Don was the one who made a lot of efforts during the trip :D rewarded with some sugar water!

We also got lottery!! not sure if we'll win something this time. just amazed by how don was into it when I said something about lottery :) Should check back tonight!

- Also, great skype meeting last night. at the end, i even gave ian some milk while helping hyunkyung revise her research questions! not so many conflicts any more. (for tonight!)

- gave don a haircut with clipper today! :) very cute hair.

daddy's selection of sun glasses! pretty handsome boy like daddy!

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June-10-2011

My left breast hurts! (for the first time, my left breast has milk block...) I couldn't think of anything that I should not have eaten. except... the two fried sesame balls with sweet stuff inside yesterday evening at T&T. I hope to keep my 'good' breast with me. don't give me white dots like my right one did...!

Tried to give ian the 'noisy' cloth blocks. He actually grabbed them by himself when I placed the block on his tummy. cute.

後來下午我就發燒了。從37.8一直到38.4感覺很冷，全身酸痛無力，躲在棉被裡。洗熱水澡之後，擠出milk, baby再吸一吸，再冰敷。到晚上睡前退燒了。但還是很痛 :((((
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June-11-2011

頭髮一把一把的掉。真的是撥一下，摸一下，就掉一把，大概至少一次有20根，光是晚上就已經被我摸掉三四把那麼多的。洗頭吹頭髮那些都還不算。我頭髮從國中一直很多，沒想到掉頭髮會讓我那麼沮喪... 而且，掉黑的會長出白的嗎 ?

媽咪今天視訊還問我是不是剪頭髮了... 沒有剪阿 ... 現在想起來，應該只是掉了很多很多 :'(

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June-15-2011

we got ian a play mat yesterday (June-14). I think it's a great decision. Ian likes to play on it. at first, he only looked at those toys and looked around. Today don helped him grabbed the toys and he just held them in hands. Really cute. We also made some pictures for ian's LA grandpa! (happy father's day).

Don don, happy father's day too!! You're such a great daddy! I hope we will always see ian's smiles when we wake up in the morning!

Ian split some milk from his nose when he was playing on his tummy on the playmat. A little bit scary (fortunately, I have read it somewhere - it happens). I guess I would still be worried about him if he's placed on his tummy in the crib at night. But when he sleeps on his back, he wakes up twice.. I can't sleep well.

6.9kg
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June 19 or 20?

Ian had a lot of fun talking to his LA grandma. She taught him now to turn on google chat! He turned amazingly! (The first time I saw his turn on his own. Don said he saw once when ian was in his crib days ago) Ian was so happy! he kept laughing (seemed very proud of how he could turn over) and talking(?) to his grandma.

- we made a small mistake. when baby turns, he should place his arm over his head. so after he turns, his both arms will near his head to support it. (we kind of taught ian putting his arm by his body...)
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June 21, Tue
York. Met with Prof. Owston for my dissertation.
Don and Ian came with me. The same building. When we arrived the same building, I just realized that when we were here last year, I was 47 kg... now 5 kg more. (plus 7 kg on ian).

The meeting was fine. I wasn't as smart as I wanted to be. But okay. I guess I still care ian and don more -- if ian is doing okay, if he is hungry, if he is crying? if don is still running to the restroom?

It turned out that ian was sleeping! He slept on the way to York, drank a little bit (perhaps 3 sips?) before my meeting, and slept on the way to T&T, and finally drank a bit more outside T&T. He is a little amazing considerate baby.

ian 這兩天開始似乎可以接受 轉向左邊趴睡 (day time, mostly)。之前趴著他只願意轉向右邊，尤其是睡覺的時候。只要把他轉到左邊，馬上或過一下子他就會轉到右邊（不管他是不是熟睡時轉...）。他正在小睡，左邊大約睡了一小時半了。不過他的後腦，右邊還是比左邊扁/平滑...什麼時候纔會滾圓呢?
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June 24, 2011

今天開始觀察紀錄ian的作息 pretty amazing finding. --> plan: 每四小時喝一次 9:00-11 p.m. 無限供應:D

昨天晚上10:30 last milk, 11:00 sleep

woke up 7:50 in the morning. 7:50 milk

9-10:30 sleep

12:50 milk,

1:30-4:30 milk

4:45 milk

6:45-7:15 sleep, 8:20 bath

8:40 milk (5 mins) --> 吐奶 兩大口

9:30 milk (40 mins)

??

yoyo 5-month old


ian 2-month-2-week old

3m&3m1w

June-3-2011 (Friday)

Took ian for a walk in the afternoon. An old lady in our building looked at ian and said he seemed hungry (which was less possible since he just had milk) and commented that at some point, babies are always hungry. That's true.Then, an old couple saw us and came close to us, asking how old is he, and what do we call him. :) Just like they have known him for a while. :)

Now I know why ian has less hair compared to months ago. I saw him grabbing perhaps 10-20 hair in his little (left) hand after scratching his head.

June-5 (Sunday)

Ian likes to sleep on his tommy but only facing right. I am a bit worried about his neck. his head also has a small bump on left (because when sleeping on his back, he often turns his head to the right too). now trying to have him hold a rolled blanket and sleep on his left side. hope it will work.

June-6 (Monday)

Ian slept 8 hours in a row last night!!! (10:30- 6:30) I slept around 7 hours!! wow!! what an improvement!

惠齡 says: (11:40:18 AM)

how are you doing today?

keys says: (11:40:29 AM)

never better!

keys says: (11:40:39 AM)

ian slept 8 hours in a row last night

keys says: (11:41:08 AM)

i slept 7 hours in a row. probably the best sleep i got since February

惠齡 says: (11:41:10 AM)

row?

keys says: (11:41:38 AM)

in a row 就是一排阿 意思是ㄧ次沒有間斷

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呵呵 也是in a "roll"啦 被包起來...

2m4w

May-29-2011 (Sunday)

found ian's one leg and feet outside his crib when i woke up at 5.30 a.m. this morning. (his head bumped on the rail yesterday morning too) That was cute. but also a bit scary if we didn't pay close attention and put the rail down. I guess it's time for washing the crib pads for protection.

also he slept on his tummy (close to the outside rail) when i was ready to bed last night. i guess don put him into bed on his back, and he turned on his own. (even in swaddle!? he has got one arm out though) I turned him back anyway, just to be safe, as he hasn't been very skillful for turns yet.

May-31-2011

He sometimes paused and turned to look at me while having his milk, and he would talk to me! He wasn't just making some noises because he was trying to make "a" sound. For example, I asked him if he would like some more milk 好不好? He stared at me, paused, and said (有點用力）好~ I said you're amazing! Then he would laugh, seem really happy!

I notice that he starts looking at me sometimes during nursing. :) Cute! I also like him looking at me when his sitting in his car seat, like I am the person he loves forever. *^^* I hope it's true no matter how tall/ old he grows.

Ian slept 7.5 hours in a row at night. (he goes to bed around 11 p.m. and then he wakes up at 6.30a.m.)

June-1-2011

I said yes to a baby-mom study. A Mac student will come for a home visit and type our interaction to study how new moms process information and how it influences the way infants process information. kind of cool.

Ian wanted to sleep on this tummy in the afternoon... He was kind of fussy around 2:30 and I took him to our bed. After he had some milk, he tried to turn his face down (tried really hard). Surprisingly, he wanted to sleep on his tummy. (Once I helped him turn over, he seemed relieved and fell asleep right away!)

Jun-2-2011
went to toronto island with don's friend Johnny Wu. Ian has been very well-behaved since yesterday evening (we went to Boston Pizza for dinner) he was very cooperated. even for today's trip to toronto island. He drank milk at beach! lots of sea birds around.

But... after Johnny left for his hotel, ian woke up on 403 during rash hour. Damn traffic jam... we were stuck on the highway with an extremely hungry baby. He cried so loud and tearful. With his watery eyes, he finally got his milk after perhaps 20 minutes? poor little thing. then he pooped, so we had to stop somewhere again to change his diaper. He then became a happy cute baby afterward!

2m3w

may-23-2011

前一天發現ian尿布裡的便便有血點跟血絲。今天我不喝牛奶豆漿蛋肉，早上跟下午的就正常了。看來可能是過敏造成直腸有點發炎 （delicious tag: baby.care.blood, baby.symptons)。只是...對什麼過敏呢?

may-24-2011

不跟青蛙猴子說話了? 前兩個禮拜ian可愛的跟猴子青蛙談笑，這幾天只是看著他們安靜的抿嘴或是不轉的時候哎哎叫，當說，難道是ian發現他說再多他朋友都不會說話嗎?

may-25-2011

中午餵完奶拍嗝 讓ian在我肩上趴了一陣子。之後放到crib跟前一次一樣，又揮手抓頭恩恩阿阿快要醒來，於是，我讓他頭向左趴著，掙扎了一下子安靜的睡著。雖然ian已經可以抬頭，我煎蛋的過程不停的出來check他，最後一次check他已經自己轉頭面向右邊。嚇了我一跳。

may-26-2011
因為三天沒有喝牛奶了，清晨左小腿抽筋痛得醒來:( 早上喝了一小杯鮮奶，等等來吃一個維他命。希望ian不會過敏了。

may-27-2011

晚上牙齒超痛! 吃了兩個ibp止痛，整個太陽穴還是很痛，不過在鐺鐺的提議下，用力against pillow慢慢睡著了。好後悔沒有早點去看牙醫。不過看牙醫（要找到值得信任的...)真的很麻煩...。

may-28-2011

這幾天飲食正常，只是奶蛋不過量，也不喝豆漿吃豬肉。ian沒有出現血絲or血點。

今天大費周章拍了一些ian大頭照，用photoshop element 8編輯了正確大小的照片之後，仔細看canadian passport photo規定，一定要taken by commercial photographer 還要有photographer住址日期的stamp. 真是令人:( 明天去costco看看他們會幫小嬰兒拍照嗎

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weekend to do: edit ian's passport photo

蒜味牛奶番茄義大利麵

奶油大蒜醬 （奶油，蒜末，parsley leaves, 咖哩塊，糖，少許鹽）
炒杏鮑菇 煮好的白菜 加上自製dried番茄 in olive oil (醃兩個禮拜以上好吃）
可加ham & onion

加入煮好的天使麵（細）
倒入鮮奶，加黑胡椒與少許鹽
快收乾時，加入cheese (這次是用切小塊的feta cheese)

好吃:))))

2m2w, 5/16-22/2011

May-16-2011
ian is much taller now. i can definitely tell when i feed him. he likes to talk a lot. when i was on the phone with my mami, he just kept talking too...

we started to have him practice his neck muscles. need to catch up... (we didn't take tummy time seriously or do much exercise for his neck...) 3rd time in the evening, he could lift his head much better than the first time in the evening. proud of him :))))

irobot worked for us for the first time in the evening. don was amazed by irobot's good job. we were talking about how to bring it back to taiwan since it is heavy. i said we should bring irobot's "home" back to taiwan, ... don continued, and then irobot will arrive in 2 years. or maybe all irobots nearby will align outside our door... that's cool.

May-19-2011
ian can lift his head up for seconds now :)

May-20-2011
Rolled from face up to face right on his own several times this morning :D

May-21-2011

slept for 6.5 hours (11p-5:30a) and then 4 hours at night!

這兩天晚上baby醒來很安靜，看到我就笑，然後手伸過去他嘴巴會張好開。真可愛。

may-22-2011
- 血便。8pm左右幫baby洗澡發現尿布上大便有鮮紅色點點 （兩三點）。10:30pm左右大便裡有兩三血絲。baby喝奶正常 也沒有異常哭鬧。體溫正常。

2m1w 5/9~5/15/2011

Mon, 5/9

在沙發上拍嗝時，吐奶。大約60c.c.? 還好後來好些了。

don came back from work late this evening. ian didn't poop until his daddy came back.

Tue, 5/10

turned in my proposal revisions. i guess i could have turned in the revisions within two weeks if i did not have to deliver the baby. but i am glad that i chose 5/10 as the due date because the last thing i need at this point is pressure. it is the perfect time. i hope he likes the changes i made.

brought a used nursing pillow- my brest friend. i tried it this evening once. my back was supported and i could just put my arms around ian (didn't have to use one hand to support his head/ neck and one hand to hold his body. magic. will wash it and use its pocket for holding some towels.

purchased a box of huggies. we are not big fans of huggies. but pumpers is much expensive... because costco doesn't carry the brand...

as i hoped, we put ian in his crib in the living room tonight. and i am going to stay with him tonight. ian can sleep for 5 hours in a row for most nights. i am wondering if he will sleep even better if we are not sharing the same bed (less movements around him). plus, his daddy has installed a very nice a/c. i guess he will like it. let's keep fingers crossed.

(update: slept quite well. 10p-3a, 3:30-7:30a, 9 hours in total. only looked around before slept for the 2nd round. swaddled him and he fell asleep quickly.)

Wed, 5/11

next time, get white toast from metro. when i made lunch for don this morning, toast has become 'stiff'... so i guess if we don't eat any toast right away or within two days, we shouldn't buy from t&t. get from metro next time. just make thin slices.

Thr, 5/12

ian "semi-rolled" on his own for the first time. facing (body too) right to facing down on his tommy, and then turned his head to the right. (i missed it... after feeding him, i went to kitchen, and don saw it all.)

white nose daddy. 當當晚上洗完澡之後用了妙鼻貼。我笑牧牧會不認得他，他不信。當把ian抱到大腿上，他一開始眼睛一直轉到別的地方avoid eye contact, 當把他頭轉正，強迫他看，他一看眼睛瞪超大，扁嘴要哭。當當跟他說是爸爸阿，聽聲音阿，我是爸爸...（重複n次）。ian眼睛瞪超大好幾次（嚇到的樣子），爸爸一直逗他，終於笑了。哈哈 好可愛阿。可惜沒有錄下來...。

made a video today, 2m-2m1w

Fri, 5/13 (10wks)

11:00p-3:30a (4.5hr), 4:00-8:00a (4hr)

2-month check up with a nurse practitioner, Jane (because our doctor zazulak is away). the nurse was pretty good at checking babies and ian even gave her a lovely smile (before he got needles.) As to the vaccines, he was pretty brave :) We got a bottle of baby tylenol. I hope he won't have fever at all. we'll see!

measurements:

weight: 5.78kg (50 percentile)

height: 61.5 cm (higher than 50 percentile)

head: 40.5 cm (85 percentile)

Jane said, ian's skin is dry because... the longer babies stay during pregnancy, the drier babies' skin would be.

video is here:

Sat 5/14

Baby was really warm around 4 a.m. in the morning because of the vaccines. But became cooler after an hour. Much cooler in the morning (around 9 a.m.) So he did pretty well for the first set of needles :)

Sun 5/15

Went to mississauga to buy a used graco 3-in-1 pack n play. it was definitely the wrong thing to do. baby cried when we placed him into the bassinet. the teddy bears neither sing, nor move in a circle. ian was really upset and he cried in tears. when i picked him up and brought him to his daddy, he even cried with his loudest voice. Of course, his daddy's rock heart melted. don said ian should get used to it (although it's mommy's mistake...) and soon changed his mind to let the stuff go right away...

Lesson learned:

1. should check what we'd like to buy together (we 3 should see it together)

2. should check if the stuff has been stored for a long time (a storage smell) . and check if "mobile" can really move...

3. perhaps just buy it from once upon a child next time if not sure baby will like it or not. at least we can refund within 7 days.

we finally decided to place ian in his crib all the time. just move the crib from living room to bedroom and from bedroom to living room everyday, so that he can see his friends all the time. He seemed really happy to see his friends again and talked to them for a long time (while I was organizing clothes in the same room).

I got rid of the shoe racks in the bedroom. we did a lot of work to reorganize the storage and some furniture. don installed the a/c... tomorrow, roomba will start to work for us too.

First mother's day.

Had a good time yesterday for my first mother’s day. Of course, ian doesn’t understand mother’s day yet, but he is healthy and happy - my best gift for the first mother’s day. and thank god for giving me a customized-made son. the best.

Don took us to blockbuster to rent a movie, the joneses, and boston pizza to get chicken wings and a pasta. delicious. (thank you dear) we had to stop several times during the movie to check ian when he wanted our attention. But most of the time, he sat in his papasan and watched the movie with us.

Sometimes, I feel frustrated or dissatisfied with my ‘new’ life, especially when I can’t do what I used to do or I don’t feel what I used to feel - not able to colour my hair, having dry hair, losing some hair(?) recently, caring extra weight, not able to drink coffee, tea, wine, beer, …, not able to take medication, worried about seeing a dentist, not able to find a good time to write/ or write in a library…, not able to wear my favourite tops…, not able to spend 'private' time with don... I know I should be grateful because i have the most important people around me, don and ian. (Of course, i still miss my mami and daddy…) I know I will get what I ‘can’t do’ back when ian grows up, and I somehow look forward to the day, but I know I will miss ian’s tiny hands, feet, and cute face during breastfeeding/ burping badly from that day on.

Life is full of contradictions!

Happy Mother's day 2011

今天就是那偉大的母親節
從小開始大家都會在這一天跟媽媽說母親節快樂
特別是國小時候還記得還會跟學校買康乃馨送給媽媽～～
今年的我們一樣寄卡片打電話跟”媽媽們“問好
更加不同的感覺是 自己也是父母了

自從ＩＡＮ加入我們家庭之後
很多事情都隨著改變
生活也變得更加忙碌 疲憊
但是這一切卻是甘之如飴
ＢＡＢＹ帶給我們的歡樂遠遠大於這些辛苦
看著ＢＡＢＹ一天天長大一天天進步
當爸媽的莫非就是要這些而已

今天的節日 我們去買了雞翅 義大利麵 回家吃
邊吃邊看著電影 （感覺有好一陣子沒有看電影了）
ＩＡＮ就坐在旁邊陪著我們
看著ＩＡＮ可愛的模樣
可以想像當他第一次說媽媽爸爸時候
我們會有多開心～～


當然囉 要跟咪咪說聲母親節快樂
辛苦你了 有你真好 ～～～

5/2~8/2011

ian的進步:
- 聽聲音會轉頭 :)
- 有時候會看著拳頭，有點餓得時候會吃拳頭，偶而也會吃食指


ian's health:
- 大腿，小腿外側皮膚很粗，手肘到手腕之間外側也乾乾的，有些地方還脫皮。擦嬰兒油沒用，歐蘇丹baby mami balm沒用，擦之前mima買給我的cetaphil （網路也推薦）好像有用，但我只敢擦很薄，因為不是for babies/也沒說babies不能用。星期五去walmart買aveeno 最保溼的 連有eczema 所以乾乾的也可以用。don連沐浴乳都換成超保溼（因為懷疑是天天洗澡才越來越乾），eczema也可用的。左大腿變得光滑了。

Breastfeeding:

- right breast 又塞住了，同一個地方。這次是連續吃兩餐牛肉咖哩。太油了:( 看來以後咖哩列為黑名單。

sleep:

- 晚上first round 4-5.5 小時, 2nd/3rd round 3小時左右。

- 規律的大約10-10:30p之間想睡覺，包起來之後，抱著一下，大約10分鐘以內放下去就睡著了。

- 大約前兩個禮拜或上個禮拜開始，睡覺醒來會旋轉了45- 90度都有。

- 是不是可以讓他睡小床/ seperate room了呢? 還在想。

關於哭聲
- don 發現ian哭聲從 連續的哇哇哇 變成有間歇的 媽 ...媽... 而且我覺得他的“最大聲”變得...無敵大聲
- 好像有比較少哭。
- 會扁嘴，撒嬌成份比較多 :) 扁嘴沒有變成哭過，但是太可愛又可憐了，讓人看了都忍不住要秀秀。有時候他馬上就會笑了，又扁嘴，又笑 XD 扁嘴原因，forest mobile又卡住，don拍mobile說打打打...，ian就扁嘴了... 真是個愛好和平的小孩阿。


關於尿布
- 這禮拜有兩三次包好奇寶寶(2號 for5~8kg. ian is about 5.7 now)，黃金漏到整個背都是 快要到脖子了。連衣服都變成金黃色，小臉盆也洗不了，擦得也不行，最後幫baby快快洗了個澡，再慢慢搓那些衣服跟布...。還好Huggies整箱快用完了。don寫email complained, they are going to send coupons... I wonder how coupons can solve the issue. using money to buy our time??


關於baby carrier
- mima帶來的disney baby carrier 也不錯，只是baby再長大就不知道怎麼調整大小，背起來背也滿痠的。另一個缺點就是，每次怕baby頭吹到風就只得穿有帽子的外套，但穿外套就比較難放進carrier裡面。
- 買ergo baby carrier (90)雖然baby還有點太小，在屁股墊摺起來的receiving blanket 脖子墊la阿媽車的大紗布巾，小心點也可以背。carrier的帽子很棒，下雨出太陽或是像don害怕鳥屎都可以用。另一個很棒的優點就是要把寶寶放進拿出，幾乎可以一個人做到。

其他:
- 存TD。姑婆跟LA阿公阿媽帶來的現金/支票。細目記載google docs。
- 打電話到LA，ian跟阿媽 唷，help，阿屋，mi's ma就好開心。

- 還在尋找最佳的（固定）writing time。本週試過早上5-7 a.m., 6-8 a.m., 8-10 a.m.。若是起得來，早上大家都還沒醒是最佳時間，但是... 通常都很累... 。今天傍晚don顧一小時，給我戴耳塞寫了一小時，也還可以。慢慢是不是可以練成像修行那樣，不受外界干擾?? 也不用咖啡??

- 我的記憶力好差窩。

- this week開始明顯得掉比較多頭髮。

mami 健康牛楠湯食譜。

T&T牛仔楠(? beef...chest)一捲，洋蔥一顆，番茄兩三顆，鳳梨芯，辣豆瓣醬半小匙，醬油大約1/2 - 1/3杯，薑，蒜，白胡椒。

1. 牛楠切大塊，薑蒜爆香後，加牛楠炒表面熟。
2. 換悶燒鍋內鍋，倒入牛楠，加入洋蔥，番茄，辣豆瓣醬，醬油，加水，胡椒（可加少許黑糖）。
3. 煮滾後，悶燒鍋，每4~6小時加熱一次。3~4次可吃囉。

4/24-27 ian with LA grandpa & grandma

突然好捨不得，從昨天/前天開始，想到爸媽要從這裡繼續去玩，然後回去LA，我整個都快要哭了。我還是當年那個離不開爸媽的小寶寶吧。他們好疼我跟我們，我(們)也好愛好愛好愛他們。小學不寫功課都是值得的，跟爸媽在一起的時光永遠都是最開心最寶貴的。他們真是創造快樂回憶的魔法師，記得他們來我的畢業典禮，我們的婚禮，到ian出生，還有很多以後特別的場合。ian昨天晚上很晚睡，他很乖，自己一個人躺在crib裡，我坐在旁邊用電腦一邊陪他，他不停的揮手踢腳然後ㄧ邊對著我 “唷 唷” “呵 呵”。一定是這幾天跟阿公阿媽玩上癮了，真會逗孫子阿，沒看過ian像這幾天這麼開心，我又更捨不得他們回家阿，心裡覺得感動的想哭。

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7W (4/18-4/24/2011)

- 這幾天baby開始想喝奶的時候，開始會對著我伸舌頭（有時候會深好長:))，不會馬上呻吟或大哭。這樣很安靜的，我就知道他想喝了。真不錯阿。

- 終於錄到他笑了。他有時候笑得更開心還會"呵，呵"呢。有時候他太可愛了，都捨不得轉身離開去拿相機，就怕錯過他的哪一個笑容。

- 星期二，問ian要不要聽故事，他竟然說 “邀”。問他好不好（問題我忘記了），他說"好“。雖然可能巧合，但媽媽我真是好興奮唷。可惜他還沒表演給爸爸看。話說回來，我覺得Don的Frog&toad故事越念越好耶。

- 乳腺炎。星期二右邊brest出現另一個清楚的小白點，很結實的硬塊擴大到1/3~1/2。多喝水，早晚吃卵磷脂，洗澡時推硬塊，餵ian前先pump右邊，一邊按摩(痛:~) 再用電動按摩推一下，熱水紗布熱敷小白點，再餵（先讓他吸右邊，不同姿勢:躺餵，坐餵，Football)，盡量多睡覺。睡前很擔心，打算隔天掛號了。凌晨兩點起來pump，因為ian還在睡，四點終於被ian吸散了 :)))。但小白點還在...。漲的時候按它還是有點瘀青痛。還好目前看起來沒有細菌感染。

想起來這次乳腺炎原因可能是水喝太少，加上早上又很早起來，忙碌整天，睡眠不足。吃得不夠清淡。!?

- 星期三，忘記appointment with Dr. Luthra :( 前一天還記得，但（日夜一直推硬塊）當天下午才想起來早上跟醫生有約。生活越來越忙碌以後，應該要養成習慣，每天早上/前天晚上看行事曆。或者用白板寫下當週重要事項。

- 星期三，達成ian午睡的夢想。今天早上八點醒來。我們吃完早餐，十點半再睡午覺加餵奶到將近十二點; 下午兩點午睡加餵奶; 四點到六點。3 naps :) 也許喝decaf ian真的會睡不好，這兩天沒有喝了以後（但也就沒有寫論文- -）昨晚也從十一點半睡到四點半。

- 星期六。今天要帶baby出門，突然發現他坐不下car seat。精確來說，是straps 太短。我們研究了好久 （一邊在想難道這麼快就到了該買convertible car seat的時候了嗎)，我再看一次之前找到的youtube影片，突然發現原來straps一直是裝錯的，難怪baby的手每次都很難穿脫。真是個大發現。（醫院的護士也都沒發現...）

- ian今天用最大的橢圓白色澡盆，搭上once upon a child買的斜斜靠背。洗完澡第一次擦嬌生嬰兒油，香香的，感覺也滿保溼的樣子:) 希望對baby的漏脂皮膚炎有幫助。

6W

dreams

我們跟BABY心靈相通 窩 :)

2月22號晚上跟咪咪都有夢到BABY

我夢到BABY好可愛 BABY的外婆每次來都一直抱著BABY

但是突然BABY說好熱窩 我就醒來了 :D

2月23號晚上 這次我夢到咪咪落紅一會後就破水 過程中LILI 一直在旁協助呢

結果今天早上起床之後 咪咪真的落紅了

這意味著 BABY 很快就要出來了嗎 :) 好期待

夢見baby。

早上醒來的時候，跟當當說我夢見baby。
當當說 我也是耶。

當當夢到我們在家生出baby，他很可愛很可愛，眼睛大大的。爸媽來的時候，媽咪抱他抱很久，因為太可愛了。然後baby說了一句話，我好熱。當當就爬起來上廁所了...。

我是夢到我們的baby剛出生是個長得像黑人跟印度人混血的小女生(!) 跟我們預期的都不一樣，我問當當，她長得像我還是像你? XD

所以，我們很少做胎夢，是表示baby快要快要出生了嗎? 10 Days to go...!

每天一碗雞湯

雞胸肉或雞骨架加薑片（多一點）跟蔥白 燉40-50分鐘。

分裝冷凍。

早上起來電鍋熱一熱，另外煮麵線。拌在一起吃。

預防感冒。

-- 于美人 最後一集的感冒不要來 新聞挖挖哇 --

關於懷孕。

What do I learn from pregnancy?

- How time changes a body (or two? :) ).

醒來的時候，看著窗外透進的陽光，就像那天在芝加哥從地板上睜開眼睛

清新空氣裡懸浮著閃閃發亮的粒子，世界等著我們發覺奧祕。

(現在肚子一天天長大，早晨從床上水平翻轉180度緩慢以30度再60度垂直撐起身體)

有了孩子之後，還會在同樣的時間醒來，用同樣的角度看著那一扇窗嗎?

九型人格分析

第五型	智慧型、觀察者、思想型、理性分析者、思考型 16%
第七型	快樂主義型、豐富型、活躍型、創造可能者、享樂型 15%
第九型	和平型、和平者、和諧型、維持和諧者 14%
第三型	成就者、事業型、成就型、實踐型 13%
第八型	領袖型、能力型、挑戰者、保護者、權威型 12%
第四型	藝術型、浪漫者、自我型、憑感覺者 12%
第二型	助人者、全愛型、助人型、成就他人者、博愛型 7%
第六型	忠誠型、忠誠型、尋找安全者、謹慎型 6%
第一型	完美主義者、完美型、改革者、改進型、秩序大使 5%

我的九型人格分析？

interesting day to eric's house

dinner with eric's family (and serbern).

we're finally home at 11 p.m. it was snowy. and eric house was far away from the city. it was a scenic drive but also quite dangerous.

i enjoyed sheryl's funny stories and cook. and eric's wonderful family. and big black dog. and 13 yr-old black cat shadow.

i am very dizzy though. because i had to hold back the coughs ... or because of the dog smell on my hands... or because i haven't been able to sleep well these days due to the flu...

need to rest now. or throw up.

new year eve

:)

今年的過年沒有像之前在IU時候跟一些朋友聚餐的熱鬧

但是卻來了一位我們生命中最重要的人之一

我們的小BABY IAN

除夕當晚我跟咪咪吃著簡單的年夜飯(小火鍋)

IAN 很乖的陪著我們一起吃飯一起看電視

媽媽還幫IAN準備一副碗筷呢 !

原來跟自己最親愛的家人一起吃飯是這麼幸福的一件事情

那時候就已經開始想著 希望每年IAN都可以陪我們一起過年一起吃年夜飯

雖然是簡單的小火鍋但是卻有無限的幸福

其實簡單就是幸福阿

Clarins - Hydra quench cream

這幾天把小小罐的sample用完 :) 雖然網頁上寫它是day cream 但晚上用（尤其是暖氣造成很乾燥 或者天氣乾冷）白天用，都非常保溼! 冬天用很不錯~~

sleeping patterns

i guess my sleeping pattern is different now. i wake up almost every 4 hours and stay awake for a period of time before feeling tired (sleepy) again. I couldn't think of the reason for waking up at the middle of night (like 3 a.m.?) but now i am thinking about getting ready for preparing for breastfeeding?

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questions for st. joseph hospital

- can my husband stay with me in the room during the recovery period? (with other four people)?
- if we need a c section, will my husband be able to come in the surgery room if he chooses to?
- is there a nurse with us all the time to assist us when we don't know what's going to happen next?
- ask for walking epidural (can still feel contractions for effective pushing) - always?
- phone number for the assessment line? list of signs?
- if baby will stay in the same room with us?
- what should we prepare for breastfeeding?

玉兔迎春添新象

玉兔迎春添新象

帶寶寶坐飛機

昨天去逛書店，從雜誌學到的 :)

準備器材: baby bjorn/ sling, car seat, 奶嘴~

1. 安全感: 可以帶個sling/ baby bjorn，飛機上讓baby背在身上，這樣可以一起睡覺。寶寶醒來也比較不會害怕陌生環境。（但飛機起降可能空姐會要求要垂直抱著?)

2. 位子: 若是有閒錢，可以幫寶寶買個機票，再把car seat綁在座位上。若是沒有錢買一個位子給baby，還是可以把car seat帶著到gate, 若是機上有座位，通常空姐會幫忙移個位子。或是爸爸訂走道位子，媽媽訂靠窗位子，寶寶就很可能有空的中間座位可以坐(帶car seat) :D

3. 飛機起降: 寶寶的耳膜在飛機起降可能會不舒服。給他一邊吸奶嘴，吸手指頭，或喝點水。

我們有多富有，幸福快樂。

跟當當在一起之後，走遍了不少yard sales與賣二手東西的人家。雖然暫時還沒有自己永久的家，但總是很喜歡沈浸在佈置小窩那種溫馨幸福的感覺，與每天醒來在只屬於我們獨一無二空間中呼吸著的生活。

今天是第二次讓我覺得shocked的經驗。記得上一次是我們與怡君某個週末興沖沖逛著yard sales, 跟著大紙板做的牌子繞進mobile homes社區裡，老婆婆坐在雜物堆裡賣著看起來像是她辛苦拾荒來的或是僅存的用品。我們跟她買了兩三個玻璃杯，以感念經濟壓力下我們的生活其實還是多麼富足。

這一次，我在kijiji上看到潔白乾淨的床架與床墊，心想也許可以買到很新很不錯的單人床。打了兩通電話連絡好之後，當當跟我前往這個hamilton的公寓。來樓下與我們會面的是一個穿著居家黑衣黑褲與毛拖鞋的胖女人。我們跟著她緩慢的沿著窄小幽暗的樓梯爬上三樓公寓，時間似乎在對抗重力的過程中黏滯，她剝落的黑色的指甲油在面無表情開著防火門與公寓門時特別令人感到哀傷。房裡地板上，點了一盞沒有燈罩的燈泡，斜斜擺著拆了一半的舊床架，床架角落有不明黑灰，當當說立著的床墊已有些變形。我只好開口面對她說，很不好意思我們找的是更硬一點的床墊，謝謝妳的時間。我想我還是帶著微笑。也許有一些尷尬。

走下樓梯的時候，我們都有些狼狽。想要快速的逃離那個世界，不只是實質的幽暗，而是一種說不上來沉沉的憂鬱。然後，我們帶著麥當勞回到明亮可愛的家，感念每個我們遇過開心的人，oakville彬彬有禮又有力氣塞床墊的印度人，toronto beach熱情自動降價賣我們衣櫃的家庭，hamilton山上拿著大毛巾幫我們擦乾change table雨水的捲髮媽媽，U of toronto賣我們書櫃鏡子與一堆其他東西的土耳其tuba與她熱情有趣的媽媽...。我們帶回來佈置的其實包含著許多有趣的對話與回憶。

晚餐後，我們跟ian大玩聽音樂跳皮舞的遊戲。看他在肚子裡隨著伍佰很俗的歌起舞，想像他應該是個孝順貼心的小孩，這麼年紀輕輕就會娛樂父母。:D 我們真的很幸福很快樂。能夠笑，真是最好的禮物。

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小記：當當的感冒終於快好了。據當事人說，只剩把死掉的病菌混著膿痰咳出來。昨晚，在床上當當又咳了一口痰，企圖偷懶吞回去。被我發現叫他快去吐掉。順便肥皂洗手，再漱口...。當當抗議地說，又沒碰到手，為什麼要洗手。(明明就會拿薄薄的衛生紙擦嘴巴阿...) 所以當當大笑問說，要不要順便洗澡，洗頭...。咪: 好阿，還要洗一下浴室，刷馬桶...。